Today is not a good day. I
have been feeling off for the last couple of days anyway but today was the
peak. I have had no appetite and so have eaten mini meals instead
of the traditional 3 meals a day. For example... Today I had 2 oranges
then 2 hours later I had a small apple/raisin salad. Two hours later I
had one piece of string cheese and a half a cup of salad. Two hours later
I had 10 baked potato chips. Nothing tasted right and nothing really
filled me up. in fact, I probably would have lost it if I had tried to
eat a whole meal (oops.. forgot to mention that I had 5 sugar free popsicles
and one weight watchers ice-cream sandwich).
As the day went one the more intense the burning sensation and the less mobile I became. The temperature is bothering me more and even going out to the mailbox and back makes me feel sick. Everything feels magnified x10. The muscle spasms are happening more often and my coordination is off.. On top of all this my nose is running , I feel weak and I wont even mention what my gastric system is doing and the lack of sleep! What a list.... it sounds as if i were 98 instead of 48.
But, this is the time when I find I have to fight harder.. I have to pare down what I usually do and focus on the good. Its not easy, its never easy, but I have to do it. I have to grit my teeth, put my head down and make it through. Even though I made a list here.. I don’t like making a list of the symptoms that I am experiencing at any given time because it makes it easier for me to feel sorry for myself and becomes easier to just stay in bed with the curtains drawn although that is not what I should be doing. Bad days are a fact of life... and I just have to learn to live with it.
As the day went one the more intense the burning sensation and the less mobile I became. The temperature is bothering me more and even going out to the mailbox and back makes me feel sick. Everything feels magnified x10. The muscle spasms are happening more often and my coordination is off.. On top of all this my nose is running , I feel weak and I wont even mention what my gastric system is doing and the lack of sleep! What a list.... it sounds as if i were 98 instead of 48.
But, this is the time when I find I have to fight harder.. I have to pare down what I usually do and focus on the good. Its not easy, its never easy, but I have to do it. I have to grit my teeth, put my head down and make it through. Even though I made a list here.. I don’t like making a list of the symptoms that I am experiencing at any given time because it makes it easier for me to feel sorry for myself and becomes easier to just stay in bed with the curtains drawn although that is not what I should be doing. Bad days are a fact of life... and I just have to learn to live with it.
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